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Spending July outside Mumbai.

It was raining in Singapore on a random day last month and I was stuck with a super weird realization – this would be the first July that I’ve spent not being in Mumbai in over 15 years!

It made me feel so weird because there are actually very less things better than July in Mumbai. Even though the rains continue all through August and September, there is nothing better than those first rain showers in July. If you’ve lived in Mumbai long enough (or if Mumbai has lived in you long enough), you will end up loving Mumbai rains. Mumbai rains bring with it a familiarity that only being in Mumbai will give you. It could be raining anywhere else, but that rain will never make you feel quite like Mumbai rains will. All the floods, delayed trains, broken roads will never outweigh what Marine Drive looks like during a thundershower. Or what watching the rain from your extremely, super, tiny apartment will make you feel.

It rains a lot in Singapore. Its pretty erratic. You never know when its going to rain – it kind of comes out of nowhere. Thats what I love about Mumbai rains: you always see them coming. And I don’t mean those warnings that the weather department gives you – I mean those stupid, small things that show you how close you are to rains. Like the auto rickshaws that start putting out their plastic flaps, or shops at linking road that start selling durable footwear, or even that one over prepared lady on the local train with a raincoat for her bag pack.

It doesn’t take a lot of years to fall in love with Mumbai rains. Everyone starts off the same way: hating them, hating the traffic and the mosquitoes. Then you learn to live with it, to deal with it because you have no choice. Then you start to endure it in the fun way – like when you read a news article talking about how Mumbai doesn’t slow down during the rains. You won’t even realise it when you start to like it. Or when you actually start looking forward to them. The rains will destroy your brand new footwear, sure, but by now you actually don’t mind. Suddenly, one day you’ll realise that you’ve spent the whole year waiting for July.

But really you’ll only ever know how much you can miss Mumbai rains when you’re not in the middle of Mumbai rains.

Posted in Tv Shows

Recap: Supernatural Season 5, Episode 3

Supernatural has been my favourite for a really, really long time now (10 years, yup). A while back, I started contemplating re-watching the whole thing; especially since its running on its last season right now. Being stuck at home and watching Netflix has become pretty mundane and so last week, I did finally start Supernatural all over again.

My first time around, Season 5 was my favourite season – I still stand by it, Season 5 is an emotional ride in itself. Over this last week of Supernatural, I’ve realized that I have forgotten bits and pieces here and there. And thats how I realized that I had forgotten what an absolute gem Season 5 Episode 3 “Free to Be you and me” was.

Its the first episode in which Sam and Dean are separated voluntarily after Sam tells Dean that he thinks he should take a step back and Dean agrees saying that worrying about Sam was making him inefficient at the job. The episode sees Cas and Dean team up when Cas comes asking for help in trying to find the archangel Raphael. Cas and Dean have been in each other’s life for almost over a year now, and its so easy to see how much they’ve already impacted each other; how much they’ve changed each other. So when Cas comes asking for help, even though Dean seems reluctant he agrees.

The episode basically is a mini tribute to what Cas and Dean will become for each other in the years to come (especially since you already know). So many firsts happen in this episode. Its the first time Cas impersonates a FBI agent along with Dean by his side.

Its the first time since they’ve known each other that they spend real quality time together – like friends. While waiting on Raphael, when Dean finds out that Cas is a virgin, he takes it upon himself to ensure that Cas does not die a virgin and the two of them take a trip to the local strip club. In a hilarious turn of events, Cas and Dean end up running out of the place with Dean in a fit of laughter and watching it made me realise that I hadn’t seen Dean Winchester laughing in a long time.

The episode also does follow Sam and what he’s been up to, but seeing Cas and Dean team up for the first time, puts everything else in the background. Cas has been looking for his father (God) for a while now and this is what he needs Raphael for. When Raphael strongly suggests that God is dead, Cas looks broken. Dean has never been one for emotional conversations even when he feels every emotion so strongly. He constantly dodges them with Sam, Bobby or anyone else important to him. So believe me when I say, it will melt your heart to watch Dean ask Cas “Are you okay?” and then go on to tell him that he understands what Cas is feeling and if you already haven’t fallen in love with this friendship, you will when Dean gives Cas heartfelt advice to help him keep looking for his father.

Its not hard to miss how much Cas has changed Dean, but its not hard to miss how much Dean has changed Cas too. Just before disappearing again, Cas asks Dean if he’s okay, if he’s doing fine without his brother and in just over a year, Cas has gone from a soldier following orders to a worried friend.

“Free to Be you and me” remind me why Season 5 has always been my favourite – because its just the beginning of a friendship that it going to survive so much more than anything else survives on this show. The episode ends with Cas going back to looking for his father, Sam getting a dream visit from Lucifer who confirms that Sam will be his true vessel, and Dean driving back alone. But the episode is just the beginning.

Rating: 8/10

Posted in music

Rewatching One Direction’s This Is Us

For the first time since 2013, I sat and rewatched One Direction’s This Is Us from start to finish as a part of my daily routine of watching a movie I haven’t seen before and rewatching a movie I have seen before. Its no secret that One Direction has been my favourite band since a long, long time, and solo music is no replacement for five boys singing together. I’ve always been upset about how they suddenly became so far apart from each other once Zayn left and everyone else went their own separate way.

Here are 5 things I felt strongly while rewatching This Is Us:

1) Goosebumps: Watching my favourite boys singing together and practicing together has always given me goosebumps and to be honest I didn’t think I would still feel the same with the same intensity. But I still did. The movie has them touring their second album and recording their third one and it made me feel like a teenager all over again.

2) Anger: Many parts made me feel weirdly angry at the boys. For example, in one scene they’re sitting around this campfire and Zayn asks if they would stay friends after all this is over and Harry says of course they would. They seem so innocent and young in this scene and it really killed me that it doesn’t really seem true now.

3) Love: I think I can never stop feeling immense love towards any of these boys, especially Harry. Watching them stay together every minute of every day, being tourists together, pranking each other made my heart swell so much.

4) Sadness: Obviously a movie about the boys I’ve loved for years makes me sad when I’ve to watch them together when they’re not really together. Rewatching it made me so sad because it hit me that I’d never see them like this again and that they would never be this close to one another again.

5) Unbelievable joy: Felt this crazy emotion to such a level that I had tears (which is so normal for me actually). One Direction songs have always made me emotional but I remember the movie making me even more emotional. Rewatching it after so many years made me feel this stupid happy feeling just by looking at them in their absolute prime.

Posted in Harry Potter

Dear Sirius Black,

Dear Sirius Black,

What are words when I want to describe what you’ve meant to me? 
You made me so angry when I first read about you. You made me feel like even the greatest of friends would ultimately always let you down. And then suddenly, I changed. 
I read about the real you. I read about your loyalty. I read about your love. I couldn’t believe I had ever been angry at you. I couldn’t believe how biased I was to you. 
With every page, I wanted to know you more.
I wanted to understand you.
I wanted to understand your anger.
I wanted to understand your friendship. 
I wanted to understand your family.
I wanted to understand what made you different from your family. 
I spent so much time with you and yet it was so little. 
When you died, I refused to believe it. I read it over and over again. I had to make sure that it was real, didn’t I? 
How could I accept that after everything you had done for everyone but yourself, life would play this cruel joke on you? 
I somehow still accepted it. 
I turned every page looking for a sign of you. Looking for anything that would remind me of how important you have always been.
It took me a while but I realised that I didn’t even need a sign. 
I always knew how important you were.
I always knew how kind you were.
I always knew how brave you were.
And I always knew how faithful you were. 
You were named after a constellation and now matter how many decades go by without you, it is clear that every look at the stars – it reminds me of you. 
You taught me that even when life throws you face first on the ground, you can rise up. 
You taught me that family can be chosen.
You taught me that fierce friendship will always prevail over anything else. 
And you taught me that no matter where you are, your wise words are always there at the back of my mind.


Posted in Movie Review

The King (2019)

The King follows Timothée Chalamet as King Henry V who’s forced to ascend to the throne of England after the death of his father and his brother. The movie runs for nearly 2 hours and 20 minutes and is a slow but really engaging historical drama.

I went into the movie without actually knowing anything about England’s (or more specifically King Henry’s history) but that doesn’t matter one bit. From the very beginning each character is introduced so effortlessly that when you reach the crux of the movie, you know exactly who everyone is.

Its no saying that Timothée Chalamet does a mind-blowing job. Every single movie I watch of his, I am regularly amazed by his acting. From the very first scene he appears in, you will want to keep watching The King just for him. That being said, no other actor in the movie disappoints either. Robert Pattinson plays the son of the King of France and I had completely forgotten that he indeed was an actor. Far from his roles of Cedric and Edward, Robert Pattinson delivers a French accent with such finesse that I was silently rooting for him for a bit there.

The ending of the movie did actually surprise me and I was glad for it. Filled with war, death and mild heartbreak, The King is a perfect step away from those rom-coms you’ve probably been binging on these last few months. If that doesn’t appeal to you, just watch it for Timothée Chalamet and come back here when you’ve inevitably become a fan as well.

Rating: 7.5/10

Posted in Personal

2020: 700 Followers!

I hit 700 followers last week – almost like clockwork because every year around the same time, I hit the next 100 which actually is crazy because it means that every year, somehow there are MORE people willing to read this stuff (and I don’t even really write ‘stuff’).

I’ve always been really grateful for having started this blog because its given me so many things. I really love seeing people leave comments once in while over here: all of you are magically supportive and extremely sweet about everything written here, especially since most of it is just tv shows or music I’m obsessed with.

Thanks guys!
Stay safe and wash your hands!

Posted in Tv Shows

One year on: Malec & Shadowhunters

Exactly an year ago today, I sat and binged through Shadowhunters’ first season and a few days later binged the thing in its entirety and totally loved it. Shadowhunters gave me a lot of new things – new music, new couples to fangirl over, new actors to ridiculously follow and new books to read [because I actually sat and read all the Mortal Instruments books just to see what content got made into the show.]

One year on, I am weirdly proud to say that I still sometimes re-watch a ton of scenes from Shadowhunters, I still listen to the music from the show on repeat, and I still fangirl over Malec.

I’ve actually always been a fan of shows tjat end properly and don’t get cancelled abruptly. As much as I loathe a show ending, a great ending is something I’m always on board for. After Shadowhunters ended, I was not disappointed one bit – mostly because Malec got their much deserved happy ending, but also because the ending was quite good [completely opposite of the books – but good.]

If you’ve also absolutely loved Shadowhunters on some level, here are shows you can watch to deal with Shadowhunters withdrawal:

  1. Merlin
  2. I am not Okay with this
  3. Stranger Things
  4. Supernatural
  5. Teen Wolf

Happy Quarantine Watching!

Posted in Tv Shows

The saddest Shameless US episode ever:

Ever since I’ve started watching Showtime’s Shameless, I’ve been hopelessly in love with it. The story follows the life of the Gallagher family with their alcoholic deadbeat father and six kids who have to learn how to live by themselves. Its a remake of the UK version, but this one is SO SO much better.

It has 10 seasons with 12 episodes each and almost every other episode will make your heart bleed. Every single Gallagher member goes through problems of their own and it’ll be a miracle if you don’t end up falling head over heels for at least 2 family members. [I obviously have a favourite Gallagher and a favourite couple and a favourite season].

Season 5, Episode 6 is the most heartbreaking episode I have seen in a drama series in the last five years for sure. Titled ‘Crazy Love’, the episode finds the family and Mickey looking for Ian who’s kidnapped a baby and run away in a car confirming everyone’s fears that he may in fact be bipolar. I read this article that said that Season 5 was Cameron Monaghan‘s season to shine, and shine he does. After being mostly absent from Season 4, Cameron Monaghan brings Ian through in so many ways this season, with the best being in Episode 6 because watching it, you will never believe that Season 5 Ian and Season 1 Ian are the same – and that is exactly what acting is.

The whole episode is nothing but a huge emotional turmoil for the Gallaghers, for Mickey, and for you watching it. With a few other storylines progressing, nothing seems more important than Ian and his disease. The episode ends with the family finally finding him and admitting him in a psych ward and this gives the best Ian and Mickey moment ever since the show has started.

In another great moment, Mickey leaves an unbearably emotional message for Ian that brings along with it the first I love you for Gallavich and you will be kidding yourself if you think you haven’t waited forever for it. In a span of three seasons, Noel Fisher‘s Mickey goes from just beating people up to becoming the three dimensional character you know he can be.

All in all, the 58 minute run is an emotional rollercoaster that will remind you once again why you absolutely love Shameless. Plus, Season 5 is probably one of the best seasons the show’s produced.

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Why I'm not ready for LLM to end:

When I started my degree last year, I was terrified. Sure, I was excited but I was way more terrified. I wasn’t ready to meet new people and make new friends all over again. I totally wasn’t ready to live in a whole other country! I spent my first months still being terrified and not really enjoying it as much I imagined I would. I went back home in December and (I thought) that I was happier there.

I now have a week left of LLM classes and by the end of July, I will have my degree! And now, I am not ready to leave.

It’s actually crazy (but also in another sense, very cliche) – I’m only realizing how much I’ve loved it here when its almost done. My one year in Singapore has given me SO much. I’ve met people that I would’ve never met if I hadn’t been here,
I’ve tried new food I would’ve never tried if I hadn’t been here,
I’ve experienced things I definitely would’ve never experienced if I hadn’t been here.

More than just the degree (and some really good teaching), Singapore has given me so much more. I once read somewhere that a lot of things change in life when you stop living with your parents. I haven’t lived with mine for years and yet so many new things changed when I came here. More than things just changing, I’ve had so many firsts in Singapore (my first time dragon boating, my first gin and tonic, my first time cooking a whole meal – and a million more things).

Now that my degree’s almost done, I’m terrified all over again. I’m terrified of leaving this city because its grown on me. I love my country, but these months have made me love this new country so much that I can’t understand why I was so excited to leave it. And so with every submission done and every class getting over, I am totally not ready for this part of my life to end.