I have actually been really jealous of those people who whenever they have a problem with someone, they just sit down with that specific person and fix everything and get their lives back on track. HOW?
I have been trying (completely unsuccessfully) to get my stupid friend to make time and talk to me because (and in his words) , ‘we’ve been at odds’; To say that I have failed would be an understatement. I have absolutely failed because its been a week since I told him that I was effectively done with him, and everything related to him, and that I didn’t want to talk to him anymore. Now if the situation was reversed, and someone came up to me and told me that they didn’t want anything to do with me, I’d be worried. And curious. And upset, and little mad. And I’d probably do anything to get to the bottom of it. The only reaction I got was no reaction and if I wasn’t mad earlier at the way things at turned out, I was now.
Since Wednesday, I have been opening my phone to messages saying ‘We need to talk’ ‘When you’re free, let’s talk’ – but the thing is, its Sunday and this talk hasn’t happened yet.
The situation actually wouldn’t be the heartbreaking and I would right about now be moving on if it would have been anyone else – if it, quite literally, hadn’t been just about my favourite person who now was standing in front of me and not caring that I was done. At first, I was shocked that everything I was saying wasn’t making even a tiny, miny little bit of a difference. That was at first. It actually didn’t take me too long to realize that my favourite person is in fact, really bored. He’s bored of me, and he’s bored of my talks, and all my stories.
There’s this weird kind of feeling that comes with the realization that someone’s bored of you. First, you’re completely dumbfounded – how could someone who you tried so hard to do everything for, be bored of you? Then comes the heartache, what did you do that this person who was always happy to be around you suddenly can’t seem to get far away from you? When you finally go through the whole cycle of being really upset and then really angry, you start feeling extremely stupid. Why didn’t you see it coming? What I’ve actually figured out after a whole week of contemplating about this is that it was never my fault. I could’ve said anything else, and he wouldn’t have cared.
My favourite person got bored of me and now I’m moving back to making Harry Styles my favourite human.
I genuinely see no point in ending a month without a quote;
Major, major throwback to when I read The Book Thief and cried loads!
Guess what I was up to on Sunday night?
If you guessed that I attended Ed Sheeran’s second concert here in Mumbai, then you guessed absolutely correct!
I’m sure 99.99% of the population would agree with me when I say that you NEED to watch Ed Sheeran in concert at least once – because Ed Sheeran in concert is by far worth the money you’d pay for the ticket, the lines you’d wait in, and all the screaming and shouting of lyrics.
I last watched him when he was touring for Multiply back in 2015 (and obviously I blogged about it (go read about it, thanks!) – Shameless self publicity )
Ed Sheeran released his third studio album in the first half of this year and started touring almost immediately and thus when tickets for his Mumbai concert went on sale in July, I bought them! The concert started at 8 PM and he sang for 1.5 hours and I shouted out lyrics along with him with no tune whatsoever for the whole time.
I went alone for the concert (turns out I’m quite self sufficient that way) and recorded all the songs I had made up my mind to record! There is no comparison to Ed Sheeran singing live and with every song he just makes you realize more and more why it would make absolute zero sense to not be in love with him. He wore a blue kurta, similar to the one he wore last time and looked completely adorable – most importantly, he sang A-Team! A-Team was the first song I heard by Ed back in 2012 and the amount of love that I have for that song is not fathomable.
When he sang Dive, I completely lost my shit (so to say) – Dive is my favourite song off the new album, and then he sang Photograph as well – my favourite song from his previous album!
I had a massively amazing time and I would go back to his concerts any time of any day.
College re-opened today after a huge vacation period. Obviously, I did not want to go back to college (I never want to go back to college), but for the first time, during this internship break I had the best time – and that was the only reason I did not want to go back to college.
I interned for three weeks at a law firm and I worked with the Banking and Finance team and I’m not even kidding when I say I absolutely loved it! I had the nicest boss and the sweetest team to work for and though the working hours were killing me on a daily basis (10:30 – 8:30), I did not want to leave. This was my fifth internship and this was in fact the first time I really felt like this is what I would love doing for the rest of my life. For our last year at college, we have four specializations offered out of which we need to choose one – one of them is Banking & Finance and Corporate Law, and after this internship I can positively say I’m moving towards the direction of Banking & Finance!
All in all, my internship is over and college has started again and I would give anything to go back to work!
I watched Liberal Arts day before yesterday and it was a movie I had actually wanted to watch for quite some time. Liberal Arts is one of those movies that has actors that everyone just knows. The movie starts and the first thought through your head is, “Hey, thats the guy from How I met Your Mother!” – the protagonist of the movie is Jesse Fisher, played by Josh Radnor (who’s actually directed, and produced and written the movie as well). Jesse Fisher is 35 years old and has a degree in English and History that is getting him nowhere in life. Jesse Fisher lives in New York, gets dumped by his girlfriend, and then goes back to the university he graduated from – Ohio University, for the farewell of his second favourite professor ever.
If you’ve watched Avengers: Age of Ultron (which you definitely should have watched), the first thought you get when you’re introduced to Zibby, is, “That’s Scarlet Witch from Marvel – but, where’s the accent?” – Elizabeth Olsen plays a 19 year old sophomore who begins a quick friendship with Jesse and makes him forget that he’s actually not 19 years old anymore.
The movie overall however seems to be quite random, but I enjoyed it very much for one very simple reason: Every single character in the movie is obsessed with reading! (And actually enjoys it shamelessly) The movie has endless book references and a TON of quotes to be used for various instagram posts. Apart from Jesse and Zibby’s friendship, the movie has quite a few complex characters and various sub-plots, and everything involves books! I loved the movie and I loved the fact that millions of people rely on millions of books. Additionally, the movie had some of the most relatable quotes.
Me too, Ted Mosby, me too.
College has been on break since the second week of October. Its our combined diwali vacations and the month long internship break.
Now for the past 2 years, we’ve not really taken a family vacation – mainly because my brother had tons to study and no time to spare. So this time, when we both had ample free time, I was completely adamant about a vacation. At this point, all of us just really, really needed it.
Thus, on the 15th of October (a Sunday), we took off from Mumbai to go visit Goa! I’m not exaggerating when I say that I LOVE the beach! I’m obsessed with the water, and the waves, and the simple, happy feelings that beaches create in you. Our trip was four nights long and I’m proud to say, a complete success!
Ever since I’ve learnt how to properly use my expensive camera, I’ve actually gotten a bit better at taking pictures and thus I ended up taking some really beautiful pictures. And ever since my mother gifted me a polaroid camera, I ended up taking some really cute polaroid pictures as well!
I collected adorable sea shells, bought really cute foot jewelry and purchased tons of souvenirs (I have a definite thing for them) and had a truckload of fun – right from spending every spare moment on the beach to road tripping to various places. I clearly remember, at one point, I was standing on the beach, near the edge of the sea with just enough water washing against my ankles and I remember thinking, ‘I love this. I love the beach, and the water and I love feeling that I was born for this.’
This month has been really exciting for me, mainly because 3/5 One Direction boys released new music! The only upside of them being apart is that theres five times more music than usual. So here’s whats been on repeat for most of this month:
- Too Much To Ask – Niall Horan
- Dusk till Dawn – Zayn feat. Sia
- Your Song – Rita Ora
- I hate you, I love you – Gnash feat. Olivia O’Brien
- There’s Nothing Holding me Back – Shawn Mendes
- Seeing Blind – Niall Horan feat. Maren Morris
- Boys – Charli XCX
- Find You – Nick Jonas
- The Night We Met – Lord Huron
Additionally, I heard three new songs yesterday and approved of them right away – Bedroom Floor by Liam Payne; Just Like You by Louis Tomlinson; Personal by The Vamps.
Have you been listening to any of these super addictive songs?