Posted in Short Story!

An Open Letter –

An Open Letter to the Boy whose friendship I left behind,

I’ve read that if you’ve known someone for longer than seven years, that friendship lasts for a lifetime. Funny how that never seemed to work for us. Its stupid logic and I would love to blame it for everything we lost, but you and I both know that the only reason we lost anything was because of each other.

I’m not lying when I say this – for about 6 months of my life, you were my best friend. My favourite person. My numero uno. I told you everything, I took advice about everything from you and I spent every day looking forward to spending time with you. Sometimes, I like to sit back and blame you for everything. For not texting back, for not giving me the time of the day, for not remembering my birthday. Other days I prefer blaming the circumstances, the environment, the people we were surrounded by. I like to think that I did everything in my power to salvage our friendship, and that you, you did nothing. 

The other day I saw you and we smiled at each other. A few minutes later I saw you talking to another girl. My best friend asked me if it bothered me. I said no. But to be honest, it bothered me. It bothered me to think that if everything that happened hadn’t happened, you and I would be talking like this. You and I, we’re okay right now. But if everything that happened hadn’t happened, you and I, we would have been the same. 

You once told me that in a run of around 10 years, we’ve had 1 bad year and we’re the better for it. I wish I could agree. I think, one bad year completely destroyed us, and I think we tried to come back, but we really couldn’t. If there is a half year resolution, mine would be that you get the best of everything in life because you deserve nothing less. 

Sometimes I can’t help but miss you desperately. Sometimes I can’t believe how powerful one year can be. Most days, I still blame you for giving up on what could have been a lifelong friendship. But after a year of fighting and reflections, I know it wasn’t your fault. Not really. I once read, “People don’t grow apart, they allow themselves to grow apart.” 

90% of the time, I want go back in time and erase every fight and every mistake. The other 10% of the time I want to move on, and I want you to move on but never forget that no matter where life takes us, I’ll always be there when you really need me. I’m rooting for my 10%.

The Girl who’s learning to Move On

Posted in Personal

I got Leh’d!

Summer vacation is by far the happiest part of college life. You actually get a full month long break from hectic college life and seeing how this is the last time in my life that I’m actually going to get a proper summer vacation, my really adorable parents decided to take us out on a family vacation!

India, if you really go properly exploring, is a beautiful place with a ton of great places to visit – and so you can never really get tired of vacationing in India. This time, we vacationed to Jammu and Kashmir. Fun fact about the northernmost state of our country: 95% of Indian laws do NOT apply to J&K; in fact, the state has its own penal code as well!

Jammu and Kashmir is a fascinating state and is divided into three major regions. The one we visited is called the Ladakh region and its biggest city is Leh. We spent eight days in total on vacation (and most of it without internet because J&K is quite sensitive about you using your phone when you’re on vacation!), and believe me when I say, I did not want to come back. I fell in love with the place, the people, the weather, the religion and I couldn’t imagine coming back to routine and seeing the same people every single day.

Instead of getting into the full itinerary of my much need vacation, here’s a picture that cannot capture the complete beauty of this magical place!



Posted in music

My Monsoon Playlist.

Its July, 2018.

More importantly, its July in Mumbai. News flash for people who’ve never stepped foot in Mumbai in July: Its pouring here. All day, every minute and every second. Don’t get me wrong, I love it. I love the rains. I live for the rains and cancelled college classes. The rains are actually a weird route to self-discovery. They make you read more. They make you binge watch netflix more. And they make you discover tons of great music.

This is my Monsoon Playlist for July rains:
Girls Like You – Maroon 5
Is this Love? – James Arthur 
Budapest – George Ezra
Lie to Me – 5sos
Start Again – OneRepublic
Call me Sir – The Train

And here’s my new favourite Hindi songs!
Dilbaro – Raazi
Rangdaari – Lucknow Central
Dhadak title track